Why am I doing This!

Why am I doing it?!!!!!!!!!!!! I must be truly and utterly nuts, crazy, a madman without an active brain cell in my head! Why am I doing this self-supported missionary, lay evangelist/preacher thing anyway?  I could be in Korea in a month.  I could be teaching in a nice cushy ESL job being appreciated by the students and the staff making a great living and getting five months paid vacation.  I could go to Canada in the summer and Thailand in the winter and enjoy myself until the Lord comes back handing out a tract or book every once in a while to appease my conscience.  Why am I sitting in a house falling apart, with neighbors singing karaoke till all hours of the morning, like right now, 1:30 am, an not caring that I want and need to sleep and they are only turning the volume louder as the morning passes and the alcohol saturates their blood.  Why do I bother????!!!!

Honestly, what is driving me to go on banging my head against the wall with very little money, and needing more as the days pass? Why, because I am being asked to do more and give more of what I do not have and I am being looked at with hopeful eyes, wanting me to help them with funds to build their churches, preach in their churches, do a crusade, a revival series, a vespers program, a midweek sermon. But, then I am told by those that I tell about the needs here, that, well, you know, we have this other thing that we have to do, and we have our own projects to deal with, and, and, and, and, and!!!!

Like I said, I must be nuts to do this.  It is like hitting my head against a wall with a nail sticking out of it.  It feels good when you stop.  So why do I do this??  I tell you why I am doing it, even though the world thinks I am nuts and so do a lot of those who are suppose to be my brothers and sisters in the faith.  I am doing it because before this planet or even this universe was created, the Godhead made a plan to save a disgusting, worthless, filthy, sinful, degenerate life form and give him eternal life if he so chose.  That life form is me! Instead of being worthless, I became priceless because God paid a sum so valuable that there is no way you could put a price on what He paid, because He paid with Himself. He loves me so much that He was willing to risk it all just for me.  He was willing to risk it all just for Hitler because He loved Hitler and Stalin, Mao, Po Pot who killed half of his own country men.  He loved all of the Caesars and Edi Amin.  No matter what they did or how many they killed He loved them with a love that is beyond finding out and does not make sense to us.  He loves the Drunk driver who killed the family while driving drunk, He loved Herod who killed all those young children in order to kill Jesus.  You can think of the worst person who ever lived and God loves Him more than you can understand or realize.

I am doing this because God loves me.  I am doing it because I cannot do anything else. I need to do this, I have no choice.  I must do this like I must breathe. It has become apart of who I am and what I am.  I feel like I am drowning when I do not preach often enough.  Anxiety fills me when I am not doing the work that the Lord wants me to do. I have been rewired to do that which pleases the Lord and indescribable joy fills my heart when I am doing this thing which makes me look nuts to a lot of people.  I do not know any other way to tell you that this is what the Lord wants us to do.

A writer once wrote that, there should be a way of doing the work that God wants us to do. Not a career to fill up the wealth of the world so we can have a nice easy life until God comes back. If you do not have the talent to preach, then work and support the projects, revivals and crusades of those who do.  Become a vicarious preacher with your means and share in the victory of all the baptisms that will be the result of your faithful giving and most important, you're faithful prayers. Monetary support without the prayers is like giving a person in the middle of the ocean a life raft without the air to blow it up.

My friends, what is driving you today?  What is motivating you today?  You have seen the list of projects that this ministry has.  It does not matter how little you give because the two mites were more than what the rest of the people gave.  God can bless your two mites and multiply it into a fortune as others who only have two mites give faithfully.  I am not nuts, I am someone who has been saved by the love of the Lord Jesus Christ and I need to do all I can to tell others about His love for them, so they can become priceless instead of grass for the lake of fire.

Will you join with me in doing the work that the Lord has for us to do, so we can see His lovely face in the clouds of glory sooner?  Let the Holy Spirit guide you as you pray, "Dear Lord, what would you have me to do for the Philippine Crusades, what could I give that a Filipino person may have the chance to accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior, Amen!"

Please email me and let me know what you want to do to further the work of He Is Coming Ministries and lets go home to Heaven with Jesus. Your brother in the service of our Lord, our Advocate and Friend Jesus Christ,

Perry Kusnezoff
Evangelist/Speaker
He Is Coming Ministries

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